I am not a car guy.
I need a car,
I am grateful for my car,
but once I park it in the garage
I don’t think about it again
until I need to leave again.
I am not one who enjoys tinkering.
I am so grateful for all the folks,
like our very own Blandon Johnson,
who are car people,
and keep my car running.
I want to get in,
turn it on,
and go where I need to be,
and that’s it.
I am happy to buy gas
and change the oil as needed,
but beyond that,
I am happy to pay a professional.
And ya know,
the same goes for computers.
When I made the switch from PC
to Apple,
I will never go back.
It was like changing from a stick shift
to an automatic.
Now my phone and my laptop
talk to each other,
know what I need,
and have it at the ready when I want it.
And frankly,
the same goes for puzzles.
I didn’t break it.
I am NOT about to fix it.
I will admit
that this personality trait
is mostly a product of pathology.
I have known I have ADHD since I was 8,
and I tend to struggle with an impatience
for small time irritation.
I do not possess the capacity
to listen for a certain pitch before I change gears,
to learn all the ins and outs of computer science,
or to sort through tiny pieces of cardboard
to reconstruct an image
I can see on the lid of the box!
I admire those folks
who realize the toaster isn’t working
and grab a toolbox,
take the whole thing apart,
and put it back together again
in working order,
instead of Doordashing a new one from Target.
I admire these folks
because I see in them
something of the heart of God;
the God who makes something out of nothing,
who sees value
where I see only garbage;
the God who sees utility
where I see futility.
This is what God is always doing,
fashioning something from nothing,
or as the African American Church reminds us,
God makes a way
out of no way.
In fact,
God is existence itself;
all things come from God,
and all things are returning to God.
Apart from God,
nothing exists.
All of existence
is part of the divine life,
the very life and love of God.
And our God is one who enjoys tinkering.
Our God is always taking things apart
to put them back together.
Our reading from Hebrews tells us
that this is precisely the experience
of that “great cloud of witnesses,”
who “won strength out of weakness,”
who “received their dead my resurrection,”
who were saved by the faithfulness of a prostitute,
and yet
so many more were “stoned to death,
were sawn in two, were killed by the sword;
they went about…destitute, persecuted, tormented.”
And the world was not worthy of them
because God makes worth
from worthlessness,
meaning from meaninglessness,
hope from hopelessness,
purpose from purposelessness.
When Jesus says he comes to bring division
I think he means like halves of the Red Sea,
dry ground for those escaping,
and quicksand for those pursuing.
When Jesus says he comes to bring division
I think he means like nuclear fission,
the process that created the universe,
and has the power to end life as we know it.
When Jesus says he comes to bring division
I think he means like boundaries,
the difference between genealogy and kinship,
between obligation and service.
This division,
is a picture of divine judgment.
What we feared would be our undoing
is only our remaking.
Jesus came to bring division
and fire,
the fire of the Holy Spirit,
the fire with which John the Baptist
promised we would be baptized.
What we feared would be a separation,
what we feared would be a conflagration,
God has made our salvation.
The fire that Jesus brings
is the radiance of the life and love of God
at the heart of this reality,
a life and a love so big
that it encompasses this whole reality,
with all its joys and woes,
pains and promises,
faith and fear.
A life and love so big
it includes both the cross
and the resurrection,
both sinners and saints.
Our God is one who enjoys tinkering.
Our God is one who has the patience
to take this world apart,
atom by atom,
cell by cell,
and put it all back together
in working order.
Our God is one who can take all the broken pieces
of our lives
and take delight in placing them back together
to recreate the image of God.
Our God is a car guy,
a PC lover,
a puzzle worker,
a toaster fixer.
Our God is a sea-parting,
way-making,
rescuer,
calling slaves to freedom
and masters to their reckoning.
Our God is the nuclear blast
at the heart of an atom
that commands worlds from nothing
and breathes life into stardust.
Our God is the definer of family,
freeing us from unhealthy relationships
and becoming our Parent,
our Sibling,
our Community
when we must draw hard lines.
Our God has the patience
to tinker with this world
until it is fixed,
until it returns to its original purpose.
The judgement we feared
is the salvation we hoped for.
So let us trust God to make something
from our nothings,
our meaninglessness,
our hopelessness,
our purposelessness,
and let us run with perseverance
the race that is before us,
looking to Jesus,
the creation and completion of our faith,
who trusted God to make something of the Cross,
and calls us to trust God
to make something of our suffering too.
Amen.