My great-great grandfather
on my mother’s father’s side
was a man named
William Riley Johnson.
When I was in high school,
my mom became very interested in genealogy.
She spent hours researching in libraries,
archives and databases;
reading books and attending workshops.
She interviewed relatives
and recoded lineages.
On her mother’s side,
she could trace her family back
to colonial Virginia
before the trail ran cold,
and if she had been able
to link a man named John Shelton
to a man by the same name
in the same county
one generation earlier,
she would have been able
to trace that line through the barony of Shelton
to the time of its creation by Edward II
in the 14th century.
But on her father’s side,
she knows his father, Hobart,
and his father, William Riley,
and beyond that,
nothing.
In fact,
save for the census
and a newspaper article about his death,
Mom could barely prove William Riley ever existed.
Through some of these interviews,
and deciphering some family lore,
Mom came to believe
all the answers and missing pieces
lay in William Riley’s Bible,
now in the custody a cousin,
a cantankerous old haint
who not only knew all of its secrets,
but guarded them like a dragon’s hoard.
She believed
that she had been charged
with obscuring some stain on the family’s honor
and not with preserving and passing on
family history.
She insisted,
“you don’t want to know.”
And that made my mom crazy.
Not only did she really, really want to know,
well, now she HAD to know.
But we don’t.
We lost track of this ogress of a cousin,
and therefore the chain of custody of the Bible.
William Riley was a Baptist preacher
at the time of his death in 1950,
and he is buried in the church yard
of his last congregation,
in a place called Caney Ridge.
What could a Baptist preacher
have written in his Bible
that would make a woman so ashamed
that she would prevent
even the rest of the family from knowing?
We have devised all sorts of theories.
Given the sensibilities of the day,
and his dark hair, dark eyes,
and year-round tan—
in a coal mine—
we speculated that perhaps he was half black,
or half indigenous.
We speculated that maybe he had a second family.
We wondered if he was a fugitive,
if had confessed to some crime
or to the love of another man;
or if we were all just beholden
to some Appalachian cultural peculiarity
that would inflame the sensibilities of an old woman
but wouldn’t even register in the 21st century.
We still have no idea.
The people have all passed,
the book itself is lost,
and with them the keys to this mystery.
And that is precisely
were we find ourselves
in the scriptures today.
We have a Bible,
and we have just heard its contents,
and yet the foreboding mystery remains.
Daniel speaks of a white-robed,
snow-haired,
ancient judge,
seated on some kind of flaming wheelchair
attended by thousands upon thousands,
opening a book
and giving some human-like something
everlasting dominion
over the whole of creation.
Revelation opens
by blessing the reader
with grace and peace
from “the one who was, who is, and who is to come,”
along with “the seven spirits”
and has Jesus coming back
with the clouds,
all the nations of the earth wailing at his appearing.
Then even Jesus seems to speak in riddles.
He stands before Pilate,
and says,
“Hey, you’re the one who called me a king.
But I do have a kingdom.”
Pilate says,
“Gotcha! You are a king!”
To which Jesus replies,
“No, I am the truth.”
And Pilate says,
“Whatever ‘truth’ means.”
It sure feels like this Bible
holds as many secrets
as my lost family Bible.
But the stakes seem higher here.
My family lost information
about our collective past.
These passages seem to talk about the future,
and missing information about the future
seems a lot scarier.
I mean,
what good is a wet floor sign
if you’re already lying in the puddle.
The future is scary enough
without warnings about it
that do little more than communicate,
“you don’t want to know.”
We are inundated with information
but we are starving for wisdom.
There are so many news channels,
and websites,
magazines, newspapers,
and social media outlets,
all vying for our attention
and our allegiance,
that we tend to echo Pilate’s question,
“What is truth?”
We are exhausted from this overload
and wish that someone
would come along and just fix it,
stop all the noise and fighting,
tell us what to believe
so we don’t have to try to figure it out anymore,
and we can finally have some peace.
We wouldn’t have to worry about the future
if someone else was in charge of it.
Throughout history,
this has been the response
of an overwhelmed and exhausted people.
Dictators have seized this opportunity
to get and keep power.
Preachers have seized this opportunity
to win converts.
Each promise
that a time of retribution is coming
when everything will be instantly overhauled
and from which
loyal followers will be immune.
Daniel writes of a coming king
one like a human,
who will be given all power and dominion.
Revelation speaks of the coming of the King of kings,
when nations will wail,
and Jesus will be revealed as the be-all/end-all
of time and space.
Each write under duress.
Daniel is in exile under Nebuchadnezzar.
John the Revelator is in exile on the Isle of Patmos.
They cannot write openly
about their distaste for the current regime
or promise their readers
that God is the ultimate arbiter of Justice
and not the king or emperor;
and even if the current regime
kills or represses you,
God still loves you
and asks you to remain faithful.
The same goes for Jesus,
who is bound as a prisoner,
standing before the Roman governor,
being questioned about sedition
for alluding to some king
who isn’t Caesar.
So these writers
use a literary style called apocalypse,
or revelation.
This style is like turning over a rock
and being horrified to discover
all the creepy and terrifying things
it had sheltered.
These empires insist
“you don’t want to know.”
Jesus promises
“You can know the truth
because you can know me.”
Sometimes knowing the truth
means leaving no stone unturned.
Knowing the truth takes work,
because knowing the truth is a relationship to reality,
and relationships take work.
To know the truth,
we will have to push through our exhaustion
and our desire for someone to just tell us what to believe.
We will have to be persuadable,
we will have to be able to change our minds;
this is literally the definition of repentance.
If we are incapable of changing our minds
we are incapable of repentance.
There are three things we can do
to overcome our exhaustion
and become acquainted with the truth.
First,
Turn off the TV,
walk away from the computer,
and put down the phone.
These are the source of your exhaustion.
Second,
Learn to feel lonely and under stimulated,
because trying not to feel these things
has made us more lonely and overstimulated.
We use TV and the internet to feel informed,
entertained, and less alone,
and they have made us the loneliest
and most misinformed generation
in the history of the world.
When you are lonely,
make a visit, make a call,
send a text, write a letter or email.
When you need information,
find trusted sources
in the real world,
that hold to journalistic standards
of practice and ethics.
Subscribe to a reputable newspaper or magazine.
Go to the library and ask for assistance.
You will never be able to eliminate bias,
but you can account for it with professional standards.
Lastly,
the third thing we can do
to overcome our exhaustion
and become acquainted with the truth
is pray.
Having a daily practice of prayer
that fits your lifestyle and brain chemistry,
and supports your spiritual growth
is becoming acquainted with the truth
precisely because it is becoming acquainted with Jesus
who is the truth.
Meditation, contemplation, mindfulness;
walking, sitting, writing;
breathing, speaking, singing;
Anything that builds, maintains,
and expands your intimate knowledge of Jesus
is prayer.
Then ordering your life,
your daily or weekly schedule,
to account for this regular practice
becomes a tether to reality as it is
and severs any ties to virtual reality
the empire wants to sell you.
If you need information about these practices,
I am happy to help you find the right one for you.
Deacon Intern Sue will also be holding office hours
here at the church beginning in Advent
to offer spiritual direction
in developing these practices.
This is the reign of Christ:
That we would make room
in our hearts and lives
for the truth,
for “reality with a personality,”
for Christ.
It means leaving no stone unturned
and confronting all the creepy,
terrifying things we find underneath—
and especially all the things we hid there ourselves.
The Bible can feel like one of those stones,
an ancient, opaque object
sheltering unsettling and unseemly secrets.
But our hope is not in the object of the Bible,
but the Subject of the Bible,
that is Christ,
come to reign over a kingdom of hearts
as the truth, as reality with a personality.
So, come,
and live your apocalypse,
by a practice of media fasting
and prayer,
make your life a revelation
of the lies of strongmen and corporations.
Then Jesus will reign in your hearts
and the whole world will know
who is the Truth.
Amen.