I cannot hear this gospel lesson
without thinking of Aretha Franklin.
In 1972,
Aretha recorded a live gospel album
called Amazing Grace
at New Temple Missionary Baptist Church
in Los Angeles,
accompanied by the Southern California Community Choir.
One of the songs on the album
is “Mary Don’t You Weep,”
and Aretha sings this song
as only Aretha can.
I have listened to it many times,
including many times this week
in preparation for preaching on this text.
There is something visceral about this album.
It is an actual worship service
in the African American tradition.
You can hear in the background
a call and response pattern
to the singing and speaking,
a organic sort of liturgy
where the whole congregation
is caught up in this moment of transcendence.
This style of worship,
this style of singing,
the message of the preaching,
the message of the songs,
is born at the intersection
of the best the African American experience has to offer
and the worst it has endured.
Frederick Douglass writes in this autobiography
of the singing of enslaved persons.
He writes:
I have often been utterly astonished, since I came to the north, to find persons who could speak of the singing, among slaves, as evidence of their contentment and happiness. It is impossible to conceive of a greater mistake. Slaves sing most when they are most unhappy. The songs of the slave represent the sorrows of his heart; and he is relieved by them, only as an aching heart is relieved by its tears.[1]
This singing,
this faith,
holds collective and private trauma in one hand
and hope in the other.
Present-day theologian and author
Barbara Holmes
calls this two-fisted faith
“joy unspeakable.
She writes:
Joy Unspeakable
is not silent,
it moans, hums, and bends
to the rhythm of a dancing universe.
It is a fractal of transcendent hope,
a hologram of God’s heart,
a black hole of unknowing.
For Africans in bondage
in the Americas,
joy unspeakable is that moment of
mystical encounter
when God tiptoes into the hush arbor,
testifies about Divine suffering,
and whispers in our ears,
“Don’t forget,
I taught you how to fly
on a wing and a prayer,
when you’re ready
let’s go!”
Joy Unspeakable is humming
“how I got over”
after swimming safely
to the other shore of a swollen Ohio river
when you know that you can’t swim.
It is the blessed assurance
that Canada is far,
but not that far….
For Africana members of the
“invisible institution,” the
emerging black church,
joy unspeakable is
practicing freedom
while chains still chafe,
singing deliverance
while Jim Crow stalks,…[2]
This music is for people who have been through something,
for people who hurt,
for people who need healing,
need hope
need to experience now
a longed-for peace and freedom.
In this season of Lent,
we have been hearing the stories
of people who have been through something.
First,
Jesus went experienced loneliness,
experienced hunger and thirst,
experienced the temptation
to take the quick way out,
to avoid pain and patience
and meet his own needs
instead of trusting God.
Nicodemus experienced doubt,
confusion,
embarrassment
in trying to reconcile
the God he learned about
and the God he met in Jesus.
The woman had the well
had been passed around by 5 different husbands.
She had been ostracized by the Jewish people
for being a Samaritan,
by her own people for being a woman,
and by subsequent centuries of mostly male
biblical scholars, theologians, and preachers
who assumed this woman had lived more like Liz Taylor
than that she had been inherited like a piece of furniture
by a cascade of brothers-in-law
and been treated like a burden her whole life.
The man born blind
had lived his whole life as a stigma,
or a theological exercise,
with friends and neighbors,
even Jesus’ disciples,
assuming that some moral shortcoming—
on his part or his parents’—
had caused his blindness.
And even when he was healed,
these same folks were mad
that he had been healed on the Sabbath.
And now today,
we meet a two sisters—
Mary and Martha—
smack-dab in the middle of their grief.
Their brother was sick,
but they had connections.
They knew Jesus.
And Jesus knew them.
They loved Jesus,
and Jesus loved them.
So they sent word,
and asked,
expected Jesus to come
and heal this friend he loved.
But Jesus waited.
And their brother died.
Now Jesus is coming to visit,
four days too late.
Martha hears he’s coming
and goes to meet him.
“Lord, if you had been here,
my brother would not have died.”
And maybe it’s that line
that we realize
we have been through something too.
“Lord if you had been here…”
And you can fill in the blank.
Lord if you had been here,
I wouldn’t have gotten sick.
I wouldn’t have lost that job.
I wouldn’t be divorced.
I wouldn’t need that surgery.
Maybe some of us aren’t bold enough
to finish the sentence,
for fear of cursing God.
Maybe if the Lord had shown up for us
we would still believe at all.
Maybe you know in your heart
what Martha meant in that question.
Maybe you can sense the flutter in your chest,
taste the bitter adrenaline,
and feel the clinching in your fists
that wants to shout,
“I thought you loved me!
Why would you wait to come!?
Why didn’t you just fix it
from wherever you were hiding?!
“I know the resurrection is coming one day,
but I need you to answer me today,
to help me through this now,
to fix this now.”
Jesus listens to her questions—
that I can only imagine
sounded more like accusations—
and he asks to speak to Mary.
Mary comes not accusing,
but weeping.
Mary falls at Jesus’ feet,
“Lord if you had been here…”
And Jesus wept with her.
Jesus got up
and through tears
asked to be taken to Lazarus’ tomb.
The whole crying, grieving mass of them
went to the tomb,
and Jesus grieved with them.
Jesus came
in their grief,
in their anger,
in their sorrow,
in the stench of death,
and he wept with them,
he grieved with them,
he embraced them,
he walks with them
right up to the tomb,
and he brought life from death,
joy from grief,
wonder from worry;
not by overcoming or avoiding this pain,
but by undergoing it.
Beloved,
this is still the God we worship,
this God of solidarity and redemption.
We can wish for a god
of avoidance and prevention.
We can harbor a grudge
against a distant god
of abandonment and disappointment.
Or we can find a two-fisted faith
in a God who’s been through something,
a God who will go through something with you,
a God of joy unspeakable,
a God who will cry their own tears
before they wipe away ours,
a God who will call you by name
out of every tomb in which you find yourself,
bound and stinking.
We can pray to a god we wish we had
and always feel abandoned and disappointed,
or we can sing to the God Who Is,
to the God who is always bringing joy from grief,
hope from pain,
and life from death.
Lazarus would die again.
Mary and Martha eventually die too.
But I cannot imagine
that any of them
felt abandoned or disappointed,
because they had been through this before.
They could hold death in one hand
and resurrection in the other,
and call “faith”
what they had in the meantime.
They could practice freedom
while the chains still chaffed.
They could cry real tears
and hurl real accusations
onto shoulders big enough to hold them.
And we can too.
We can go through something
with Jesus.
We can shout Hosannas and wave palms.
We can gather around a table,
break bread, drink wine,
and remember.
We can witness the terror of the Cross
and grief with Jesus’ mother and Magdalene.
We can walk right up to the tomb,
where the one we love has been three-days dead,
and call his name into the darkness,
“JESUS, Come out!”
Then we can unbind him
and let him loose in the world.
[1] Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass, an American Slave, chapter 2. 1845.
[2] Barbara A. Holmes, Joy Unspeakable: Contemplative Practices of the Black Church, second edition (Fortress Press: 2017), xvii-xviii.