Before we went to seminary,
my wife,
Pastor Jennifer,
was a teacher.
She taught in the same elementary school
she had attended as a child,
less than a mile from the house
where she grew up,
and the school our son Zion now attended.
It was not uncommon
that when school was in session
I might—
on a day off—
visit her classroom
to bring her something she left at home
or to share lunch,
or assist her with some task in the classroom.
One day
Jennifer called to ask if I could bring her lunch
and so I drove to pick up her order
and met her at the school.
Her class was at lunch themselves,
and so I sat in her classroom
and we chatted about the day so far,
what we might have for dinner,
and the latest teacher drama.
Soon, I was helping her with some task I can’t remember
when her kids returned from lunch
and she began to impose order
on the chaos.
Once she had settled them
and they had begun to work independently,
she returned to her desk,
and I kept at the task I had been assigned.
Suddenly,
the principal came over the intercom,
announcing that the school
was going into a hard lock down.
The kids fell deathly silent
as Jennifer herded them into a corner of the room
that could not be seen from the door’s small window.
She locked the door,
turned off the lights,
and sat on the floor in front of them.
I dropped to the floor,
crawled under her desk.
and hid silently.
Someone grabbed the doorknob
and rattled to door.
The kids gasped,
and Jennifer tried to strike a balance
between reassuring them
and sternly warning them to be quite.
I sat folded under her desk wondering if this was real.
Wondering if my son upstairs was scared.
A kindergartener at the time,
was he following directions?
Could he stay this quite?
Someone in the hall yelled,
“POLICE!! ITS SAFE TO COME OUT!!”
I heard Jennifer whisper to the huddled 9-year-olds,
“That might be a trick.
When it’s safe to go out,
the principal will open our door for us.”
More silence.
Then the intercom came on
and the principal said,
“It’s safe to come out now.”
Again,
Jennifer whispered,
“That might be a trap too.
The bad guy might make her say that
to trick us.
When it is safe,
the principal will come
and open the door for us.”
More silence.
A child said they needed to use the bathroom
and Jennifer tried to assure the child
that this would be over soon.
I wondered if it would be over soon.
I wondered if Zion was ok.
I prayed.
I waited.
I thought of the gun store
that sat some 300 yards from the entrance to the school.
Eventually,
the principal did come.
She unlocked the door,
asked if we were all ok,
and everyone stood up
and moved toward their seats
as the lights came on.
The child needing the restroom asked to go again,
and everyone else
went back to their desks
and began to work on their assignments.
This had been an unannounced lockdown drill,
a test run of the training the teachers had received
and the procedures the kids had learned
to evade being murdered
while learning long division.
This week,
we have seen images
and heard stories
of the most recent school shooting.
This time,
a private church school in Nashville.
Three 9-year-olds
and three adults
were gunned down
in their school—
some of them,
in their church.
When I was ordained,
I took vows and was given a charge.
I promised to tell you the truth,
to bring you the Word of God,
to comfort you in your sorrow,
but also that I would not give you
a false or illusory hope.
The things I have to say to you today
will be hard.
I pray that my words will challenge you
to examine your values,
to repent,
and to take action.
This is my calling as your pastor,
and I hope you will hear this sermon
as an invitation to further conversation.
I hope by now,
that I have established enough trust in our relationship
that you will know that these words come in love
and not condemnation,
they come with the promise
that our confession is always met with forgiveness
and that our repentance is always met
with reconciliation.
We have come to the final week of Lent.
We have called a fast.
We have donned ashes.
We have sung solemn songs
and committed ourselves to repentance.
We have committed ourselves
to examine our consciences
and recommitted ourselves
to prayer and self-discipline.
And like every other year, we are liars.
We are a stench in the nostrils of God.
We are pretentious and narcissistic hypocrites.
Our public display of ashes,
our solemn songs,
our petty “sacrifices”
of Facebook or dessert—
“God, I thank you that I am not like other people”—
are apostasy by attrition.
We have no problem
“repenting” of the “sins”
that make us seem like other people,
or make our waistlines less than flattering,
or seem to prevent us from being the best versions of ourselves.
This is easy work,
self-examination,
because, for the most part,
we like what we see.
And it feels so good,
healthy even,
to impose a bit of discipline on ourselves
now and then.
Especially in the name of piety.
Ah, but herein lies the heresy:
when we only ever think of sin
as something I did
that made God mad,
when we only ever worry
about how God looks at me
or how I could do more to make God happy,
we diminish sin
until it can be solved by a little self-help advise
with a splash of Jesus.
We have turned the cosmic Christ
into a pocket-sized idol,
a portable and personal Savior
that we can shake like a magic eight ball,
dispensing flattery and frivolity in equal measure.
If you don’t like what you see,
keep shaking him
until you get the answer you’re looking for.
No, if sin is personal and private,
between me and God,
something I can stop doing
by my will and work,
then we are each responsible for our own lives
and salvation,
and Christ has died for nothing.
We can look our brothers and sisters in the eyes
and say with conviction,
“I am not responsible for you.”
But the hard truth is
that this is all a damnable lie.
It is heresy.
Apostasy.
Idolatry.
Blasphemy.
Sin is much greater that any one of us.
Than ALL of us.
Sin is not a personal separation from God.
Sin is not “missing the mark.”
Sin is not the mistakes we make.
Sin is not even really
the “things I have done and things I have failed to do.”
Sin is a state of being,
a rotten heritage,
a congenital moral cancer
which we all share,
and from which
we can never escape alone.
Sin is less about what we do
or don’t do
and more about who we are.
So, when we fail to heed the lament of the Holy Spirit,
when we fail to see 6 lives in Nashville,
21 lives in Uvalde,
17 lives in Parkland,
58 lives in Las Vegas,
26 lives in a church in Texas,
27 lives in Sandy Hook,
or 49 in a night club in Orlando—
or every single black body
gunned down in the name of law enforcement—
when we fail to see these events
as a mirror held to our very souls,
as a spotlight on our deepest brokenness and shame,
we are only ever repeating the question of Cain,
“Am I my brother’s keeper?”
Except we aren’t asking.
We’ve turned a question
into a defiant,
declarative statement:
“I am not my brother’s keeper.”
But we hide that phrase in other words.
Words like, “Guns don’t kill people, people kill people.”
Words like, “Don’t politicize this tragedy.”
Words like, “responsible gun ownership.”
Words like, “mental illness.”
Words like, “lone gunman.”
We honestly think
that if we did not pull the trigger,
we bear no real responsibility.
We have absolved ourselves
of our responsibility for one another.
We have not turned away from sin,
but from the image of God in our neighbor.
We want repentance without responsibility,
faith without faithfulness,
and communion without community.
But, Brothers and Sisters, this is ours.
This is who we are.
And lest you think
I have somehow deviated from the scriptures,
The Apostle Paul tells us to
“Let the same mind be in you
that was in Christ Jesus,
who, though he was in the form of God,
did not regard equality with God
as something to be exploited,
but emptied himself,
taking the form of a slave,
being born in human likeness.”
Paul tells us that,
for the followers of Christ,
the conversation is not about our rights,
but about our responsibilities.
If we are to be imitators of Christ—
who is equal to God,
and by rights,
sovereign
and exempt from human suffering,
and yet
emptied himself and became obedient unto death—
then we must stop claiming the 2nd amendment
and start keeping the 1st Commandment.
And lest you think I am being too political,
our gospel lesson reminds us
that Jesus rode into the capital city
in a mock imperial parade,
to shouts of Hosanna,
claims that he was the rightful heir to the Jewish throne,
and to waving palm branches,
the symbol of the Jewish resistance
to the Roman occupation.
And when Jesus isn’t political enough for some,
or the wrong kind of political for others,
the same mouths that shout Hosanna on Sunday
will shout “Crucify him!!” on Friday.
Jesus will defy the Roman governor
and the Jewish king.
He will be sentenced to death
to shouts of “We have no king but Caesar!”
and executed by the state
with the title
“King of the Jews”
hung over his head
in three languages.
The gospel of Jesus Christ is necessarily political,
because it demands that we bring to bear
the reign of God
in this, the only world we have,
over and against
the reign of anyone or anything else.
Let me assure you:
you are beloved.
In the waters of your Baptism
the God who is love
claimed and called you irretrievably
into the ark of the Church,
the Body of Christ.
You are,
as Luther said,
“the perfectly free lord of all, subject to none.”
But do not be fooled.
Baptism is not a bath
but a drowning.
Luther also said
We are the perfectly dutiful servant of all, subject to all.
We are called to drag ourselves
back to this font
and hold our ego under
until the bubbles stop.
I pray we will find genuine repentance.
I pray that we will learn
to stop sacrificing our children
to the idol of the Second Amendment.
I pray that the Church
finds the courage to repent
of our collusion with this idolatrous powers
and stands up for justice,
because if the gates of Hell
shall not prevail against the Church,
then neither shall the gun lobby.
I pray for every child, and parent, and grandparent;
every teacher, and assistant, and administrator,
and cafeteria worker, and janitor;
for every black, brown, and LGBTQIA+ body in America;
for every concert-goer, movie-goer, church-goer,
grocery-shopper and club-goer,
for the very soul of our nation,
that our Hosannas
and palm branches,
our thoughts and prayers
not become empty platitudes
in our mouths.
I pray that we will follow Jesus
into our capital cities,
turning tables
and causing some holy trouble.
I pray that the Son of David
will reign in our hearts
and not Caesar.
I pray that when the shouts for crucifixion come
we are among those bearing the cross,
not considering our rights as something to be exploited,
but emptying ourselves
and becoming obedient unto death.
Amen.