Our readings this summer
have been challenging.
Challenging on the one hand
because of all their talk of sin
and the cost of discipleship,
and challenging on the other hand
because many of these readings
are so familiar to us
that they have lost any meaning to us
by frequent repetition.
These last few verses of our gospel lesson today
are some of Jesus’ most popular
and most comforting.
They seem to break through
all the challenge and discomfort
of previous weeks’ readings
like cold aloe on a hot sunburn.
Jesus’ words soothe,
comfort,
console.
They lilt as easily
from the mouths of prosperity gospel preachers
as from the pastel cardstock of Hallmark.
It’s the sort of verse
you’d needle point on a pillow,
which is itself
a place to come and rest.
But then there are Paul’s words to the Romans.
They sound like something out of AA’s Big Book,
stories of addiction,
desperation,
of having hit proverbial rock bottom
and found yourself still digging.
Paul talks about wanting to do good,
and wanting to stop sinning,
and yet
he always finds himself still sinning
and never doing the good he wants to do.
Paul is desperate to make a change,
and having found himself powerless,
he is looking to a higher power.
Now,
normally I save the good news
for the end of the sermon.
But this week,
I have good news,
and I have bad news,
and I think it is best to give you the good news
first.
Reading this passage from Romans
and this passage from the gospel of Matthew
together,
the good news is that
we are not what we do.
If, as Paul says,
sin is always with us,
and even though we want to do good,
to avoid sin,
to live a moral life,
but in fact, we do not do what we want to do,
but instead we do what we do not want to do,
then it is not we who do it,
but the sin at work within us.
We are not what we do.
Said another way,
you are not the “you” you hide from others.
You are not your sin
and shame,
and guilt.
You are not what you do.
And now for the bad news.
Brace yourself:
Ready?
Ok,
the bad news is
we are not what we do.
You are not your good works.
You are not your occupation.
You are not your role in your family,
or your household.
You are not what you give to charity.
You are not the service you offer to the church
or the community.
You are not even what you believe,
how you vote,
or whether you do.
Said another way,
you are not your ego.
I know,
that’s some pretty awful news.
Don’t blame the messenger;
I don’t like that fact any more than you do.
And to be clear,
what we do
and don’t do matter.
Our actions and inactions
have consequences,
in our lives
and the lives of those around us.
But they do not make us
who we are in the eyes of God.
In the eyes of God,
We are neither the self we hide from others
nor the public personae we show to others.
In the eyes of God,
We are neither our social media self,
nor our deepest, darkest secret self.
In the eyes of God,
We are neither our sin and shame,
nor our righteousness and honor.
And if we are none of these things,
then what’s left?
Who are we?
If we should not identify
with the self we hide
or the self we post online,
the where should we look
to find our identity?
Look to the font.
Look to Baptism,
where God promised each of us
that we are beloved
and God is well pleased.
We are to find our true self—
the self God sees,
the self God loves,
the self God claimed in these waters,
the self God is rescuing from this body of death,
the self God is reconciling in Jesus,
the self God is calling to discipleship
and transformation—
we are to find our true self
in the water and word.
We are not what we do
because what we do
is only a part of the whole.
God takes our sin and shame,
our goodness and our uprightness,
and buries them all in the water
in grace,
raising us up anew in Christ.
To over identify with our inner sinner
will only leave us broken and disheartened.
To over identify with our inner saint
will make us believe we have earned this grace.
We are,
in this water,
by the proclamation of God,
the reconciliation
of our inner sinner
and our inner saint.
We are a new creation,
both sinner and saint.
We are not what we do
or what we want to do.
We are who God says we are
by water and the Word.
So, come
all you sinners,
weary of your shame and failure.
Come all you saints,
exhausted from keeping up the act.
Come all you addicts
and teetotalers;
come all you self-abased
and self-righteous;
come all you backsliders
and bible-thumpers;
come all you doubters
and true believers;
Come all you fearful,
and all you faithful!!
Come here to this font
and lay down the burdens
of your ego
and of your secret self.
Come, you who labor to be
what God has already made you.
Come, you who are crushed
beneath the weight of your sin and shame.
Come and find rest for your souls.
God is gentle.
God is humble of heart.
You will not find condemnation,
or commendation.
You will find rest.
You will find hope.
You will find healing.
Your will find your true self,
already loved by God.
You will find sinners and saints,
reconciled within themselves,
with each other,
and with God.
You will find disciples.
We are not what we do,
we are who God says we are.
Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Amen.