I was very fortunate
to have been able to meet my great grandmother,
my mother’s mother’s mother.
I was the not only the first grandchild,
but the first great grandchild.
We called her Mamie.
Some of my earliest memories
are of being welcomed into her lap
while my grandmother was preparing Sunday lunch.
There, we would reenact the same ritual;
she would give me her handbag—
a gold chain mail purse
she had had since the 30s—
and I would evacuate its contents
with the care and wonder of an archaeologist.
She passed unexpectedly when I was just 6,
and so beyond the memories
of marveling at her compact and lipstick
most of my memories are mediated
through the adults that grieved for her.
One of those stories,
one that is emblematic of her
whit and general character,
has to do with her first plane ride.
My grandmother was one of two children,
and her younger sister had moved to marry man from Ohio
and had started and raised her family there.
She invited my grandmother, Mamie,
and my aunt to fly up for a visit.
Mamie was terrified,
but certainly wasn’t going to miss the chance
to visit her daughter and grandchildren.
With some great trepidation,
she boarded the plan
and made the trip.
Upon her arrival in Ohio,
someone asked,
“How was the flight?”
to which she replied,
“Alright, I reckon.
But my legs sure are tired,
I never really put my weight down
the whole time!”
There is a big difference
between belief and faith.
Belief
is mere intellectual assent,
agreement,
or confession.
When we “confess with the whole church”
the Apostles’ and Nicene Creeds,
we begin with “I believe,”
or “We believe…”
Belief is understanding information as presented,
and accepting it as true,
being convinced of the arguments,
acquiescing, concurring, consenting.
In the original language of the New Testament,
the word we translate as ‘faith’
is more like the word trust,
to believe something
and then to go beyond mere belief
to act or to refrain from acting
on the basis of this belief.
It means something closer to faithfulness,
fidelity.
The difference between faith and belief, then,
is the difference between
believing that the plane will safely carry you to your destination,
and trusting it enough to put your weight down.
Said another way,
it is the difference between
believing Jesus is coming to you on the waters,
and stepping out of the boat.
Believing is good.
Believing is crucial.
But mere belief
is not the same thing
as faith,
is not the same thing
as faithfulness.
James 2:19 says,
“You believe in God?
Good for you.
Even the demons believe that,
and shudder.”
But belief doesn’t create reality.
Belief cannot change reality.
If belief could make things real,
then Santa Claus,
the Easter Bunny,
and the Tooth Fairy would be real.
If belief could make things real,
then trickle-down economics,
conversion therapy,
and faith-healing would all work.
Mere belief does not effect reality,
it can only perceive it,
or misperceive it.
Faith on the other hand,
can see and understand reality
as it is
while trusting God enough
to put our weight down.
When Mamie got on that plane,
she was terrified.
She knew the stats.
She knew of gravity,
of the reality of death,
of the impossibility of her escape
in the event of disaster.
And despite all of this,
in spite of all her misgivings,
she trusted the plane to fly,
and the pilot to land it safely.
Now,
clearly her trust wasn’t perfect.
She wanted to exert some measure of control,
wanted to offer some assistance,
hoped to maintain some level of agency.
She believed
that she could help the plane hold her weight,
and this left her exhausted
and feeling a little embarrassed.
Much like Peter.
Peter was terrified,
surrounded by a powerful storm.
They had left Jesus behind,
and set out to sea,
and now things were looking dire.
And in a flash of lightening,
he can see a figure
in the distance,
standing where no physical being can stand.
Unassailed by the winds and waves,
this figure moves toward the boat,
and everyone is convinced
that if the storm doesn’t kill them,
whatever that is
just might!
But then the approaching phantom speaks.
“Take heart.
It’s just me.
Don’t be afraid.”
And for all his entirely justifiable fear,
Peter knows that voice.
Peter says,
“If that’s really you,
I want to be where you are.”
Jesus says,
“Come.”
Peter,
Like Mamie,
trusts that his feet will float,
and Jesus will bear him up.
But also like Mamie,
Peter wants to help.
Peter wants to hold some of his own weight.
And when he realizes
that he can’t,
when he starts to sink,
Jesus is right there,
pulls him up,
and gets him to the boat.
Beloved,
this is faith.
Jesus is calling us
to come to him
on the waters of our baptism,
to step out of our make-believe realities,
and trust the water and the Word
to bear our weight.
Belief is good.
Belief is crucial.
But faith is what saves us;
-saves us from trying to hold ourselves up,
-saves us from despairing
over the world as it is,
-saves us from delusional devotion
to counterfeit realities,
-saves us from trying to help Jesus
with our own martyrdom,
-saves us from the false hope of escape
from the suffering in this reality.
Mamie landed in Ohio,
not because she helped the plane fly,
but because,
even though she was terrified,
she got on the plane.
Peter walked on the water,
not because he learned how,
but because he got out of the boat.
Both Mamie and Peter discovered that
believing they could help
did not make it so.
Both ended up safely on solid ground—
sore-legged
or soaking wet—
in spite of their efforts,
not because of them.
Jesus is not inviting us
to begin a transaction,
to learn a spiritual skill,
to transcend this reality,
or to meet him halfway.
Jesus’ invitation
is simply this:
“I love you.”
And we can spend our whole lives
believing this is true
and wearing ourselves out
trying to make it true.
Or we can step out of the boat.
We can trust the water and the Word
to bear our weight.
We will never do this perfectly.
We will fail again and again,
and when we come to Jesus
confessing our failure,
and begging for help,
we can trust that God’s judgment
is also this:
“I love you.”
Then we can let our lives
be our
“I love you, too.”
So, Beloved,
sit back
and enjoy the flight.
Amen.