Have you ever been
in awe?
Real awe?
Jaw-dropping,
stop-you-in-your-tracks,
speechless,
breathless awe?
This is how some folks describe
the Grand Canyon,
or the first time they saw the ocean.
Maybe for you
it was a sunset,
a concert,
a mountainside
covered in the patchwork of fall colors,
the view through a telescope
or a microscope.
I have felt such a sense of wonder
a few times in my life.
I remember this sense of awe
at the vastness of the midwestern plains.
For this mountain boy,
the sprawling acres of grain
that stretched as far as I could see
in all cardinal directs
terrified me.
It was disorienting
to have no visible frame of reference
in the landscape.
I had no idea
that I had spent my whole life
geolocating myself
in relationship to mountains
I had taken for granted.
There was a chill in my soul
from this sense of exposure
before the vastness of the terrain
that felt like trying to sleep with a blanket
that didn’t cover my shoulders.
I remember visiting Moscow
and touring Red Square
and the Kremlin.
What struck me was the churches,
their architecture,
the soring ceilings,
every inch covered
in the images of holy men and women
like the seraphim encircling the throne of God.
The air was thick with incense,
the smoke outlining every shaft of light.
The gold of the icons
caught the diffused light
and reflected an other-worldly glow into the space
that mingled with the scent of wine and precious oils,
melting beeswax candles,
and the softly murmured prayers of the faithful,
and you couldn’t help but be caught up to heaven
in this cloud of holy smoke.
You suddenly knew
exactly were God was,
and it was hard to move
for fear of defiling the place
with my very being.
I couldn’t help but recall
the sixth chapter of Isaiah,
when he saw the Lord
and was terrified
because he knew
that the Lord saw him too.
Isaiah falls to his knees
and cries out
“Woe is me!
I am lost,
for I am a man of unclean lips,
and I live among a people of unclean lips;
yet my eyes have seen the king,
the God of angel armies.”
But God seems undeterred.
A seraph flies to Isaiah
with a live coal from the altar of the Lord
and touches his lips,
and says,
“Now that this has touched your lips,
your guilt has departed
and your sin is blotted out.”
And the voice of the Lord calls out,
“Whom shall I send,
and who will go for me?”
And Isaiah replies,
“Here am I;
send me.”
God,
in unapproachable majesty,
enthroned on an inaccessible altar,
attended by an army of angels,
and robed in smoke,
has come looking for Isaiah,
not to harm,
but to heal;
not to reject,
but to recruit;
not to punish,
but to pardon.
Nicodemus,
on the other hand,
has found the mystery approachable.
Nicodemus comes to Jesus at night,
intrigued by his message
and his ministry,
recognizing something of God
in his words and deeds.
Nicodemus has his reservations.
He needs more information,
needs a few more answers,
a little more insight.
Jesus offers him vulnerability,
an unknowing,
questions,
and mystery instead.
As we take this day of the liturgical year
to contemplate the ineffable mystery
of the doctrine of the Trinity,
we often rely on analogy,
metaphor,
philosophy,
metaphysics,
to try and nail down
the specifics of what we believe
and don’t believe;
who belongs,
and who doesn’t belong.
What if,
instead of seeking understanding,
instead of trying to be good enough,
instead of demanding doctrinal purity,
instead of chasing security and control;
what if we looked to wonder at the sacred mystery,
expected to encounter the inexpressible,
dared to hope that the unapproachable
might approach us?
What if the proclamation
of God’s majesty and holiness
shook the doorpost of our souls
and the train of God’s robe
filled the temple of our bodies?
What if this is the point of Baptism,
where the Word and water collide
with flesh and bone
to reconcile the saint and sinner?
What if this is the point of bread and wine
given to us as body and blood,
consumed with unclean lips
to show us that our guilt is taken away
and our sin is blotted out?
What if this is the whole point of worship,
and prayer,
and faith itself?
Beloved,
this is what we believe.
That the unapproachable majesty of God
has approached us
in Jesus.
That the unknowable mystery of God
sat down across the table
and gave God’s self away
in a meal.
That the almighty God of angel armies
won’t lift a finger in self-defense.
That the God of heaven and earth
cannot be contained therein.
And this mystery still comes to us
in our everyday lives!!
It comes to us in the love of a spouse,
in the love of a child,
in the love of a pet,
in the love of some patch of earth.
It comes to us in the fight for justice,
in the non-violent resistance of evil,
in the hope of ultimate redemption.
It comes to us in the practice of Love.
The kind of love
before which we can only kneel
and kiss the ground.
The kind of Love
that is God’s very self.
The kind of love
through which this world might be saved.
Amen.