The Spirit used to scare me to death!
Maybe that has something to do
with the fact that I grew up
in a tradition that called them the Holy Ghost.
But more likely,
it was because this Holy Ghost
used to seem to possess the people in my church
like my grandparents
and they would do weird things.
Things like
Run around the sanctuary,
Crying,
And shouting,
And jumping up and down.
This one lady
Who always sat in the same place
would jump up and down
in that same place
so often
for so many years
That the floor is weak in that spot to this day.
These people who,
on a regular day,
were plumbers
and chemical plant workers
and teachers
and housewives,
on Sundays,
were caught up in an invisible wave
that caused them to speak and act in ways
that were at once attractive
and terrifying.
I wanted so badly to know this feeling,
this Holy Ghost possession
that would make me cry “happy tears”
and fill my mouth with God’s praise.
That would make me forget all about myself
and the world around me
so I could tell the old, old story
how Jesus saved a wretch like me.
But I also lived in fear
as each year passed,
and I never ran,
or cried,
or shouted,
or jumped up and down,
I lived in fear
that I would be found out.
That these people I loved
and admired
and longed to emulate
would see that the Holy Ghost never swept me up like that.
That they would know
that my soul was a valley of dry bones
longing for the word of the Lord
to put me back together
and fill me with breath.
So, every year when Pentecost rolls around
and we hear of that mighty rushing wind
and tongues of fire
and how those gathered spoke in other languages
and everyone heard them speaking in their own language
“As the Spirit gave them the ability”
I feel this fear all over again.
that somehow,
rather than being possessed by the Holy Ghost,
I’ve been dispossessed by the Spirit.
The Disciples in today’s text
have really been through a lot.
They have traveled all over the Judean countryside,
marched into Jerusalem in a mock parade
driven the moneychangers out of the temple,
seen Jesus betrayed,
arrested,
tried,
convicted,
and crucified.
They have also seen Jesus’ resurrection,
shared meals with him,
and watched him ascend into heaven.
And now,
here they sit,
in this room,
sad,
afraid,
confused about what to do next.
Surely they can’t take the good news about Jesus
into the same world
that has just crucified Jesus
can they?
What will they even say?
And what about all of those miracles that Jesus did,
and all those miracles they had done in his name?
With Jesus gone,
surely they can’t keep up Jesus’ ministry.
In the fear, confusion, and uncertainty
this tiny room in Jerusalem
became the womb of the Church.
These disciples became the heralds
of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
Filled with the windswept fire of the Spirit
they preached the good news,
healed many,
raised the dead,
young men and women prophesied,
young men saw visions,
old men dreamed dreams.
This was the birth of the Church
and the Sin, Death, and the Devil would not prevail against it.
But here
I feel like that kid again.
I have never spoken in strange tongues
or healed the sick
or raised the dead
or prophesied
And I’m somewhere between young man and old man
so I don’t know whether I should expect
visions or dreams
but I’m not getting either one.
Surely I can’t take the good news about Jesus
into the same world that crucified Jesus
can I?
What would I even say?
And what about all of those miracles that Jesus did?
Surely I can’t keep up Jesus’ ministry.
But it’s into rooms
like this one
that God still sends that Holy Ghost,
that Spirit of windswept fire
to speak over our dry bones
a word of resurrection.
A word of power
That transcends language
and nationality
and time
and ability
and makes rooms
just like this one
the womb of the Church.
In baptism, the Spirit hovers over the waters
as at creation
calling forth life from the spiritually stillborn.
At the table,
the Spirit carries our living sacrifice to God
and brings us the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ
in, under, and through bread and wine.
And at that door
the Holy Ghost is waiting
to haunt the world with the Love of God.
Now,
to this day
I am not a shouter
or a crier,
or a jumper,
and I don’t run unless I’m being chased.
And maybe you can relate.
But we are burning
with this Pentecostal fire, nonetheless.
We are claimed by God
in the waters of our baptism,
and filled with the Holy Spirit.
It is the Holy Spirit
that descends on this assembly
and on the bread and wine on this table
to bring us the body of Christ.
And it is the Holy Spirit
that sends us out into the world
to share the Love of God
with those in our lives.
And it has been my experience
that this calling
is more often than not
far less obvious
than tongues of fire
and a mighty rushing wind.
Sometimes it looks like loving a difficult child.
Sometimes it looks like keeping our cool in traffic.
Sometimes it looks like working the same job
for 30 or 40 years to provide for your family.
Sometimes it looks like baking a casserole for a funeral,
or printing the bulletins for worship,
or visiting a neighbor,
or caring for your parents
or adult children.
Or finding the courage to love ourselves
and each other
exactly as God made us to be.
This is the Pentecostal Fire
that will set the world ablaze
with the Love of God.
This is the mighty rushing wind
that blows open the doors of the church
and carries the message of the Love of God
to those astounded to learn
that God speaks their language.
You are the Church,
a bush ablaze
and not consumed,
speaking with the voice of God
in places you thought God would never go,
to people you thought couldn’t hear.
You are the Church,
And Sin, Death, and the Devil
Shall not prevail against you.
Amen.