I grew up without much.
There were many worse off than we were,
to be sure,
but we certainly struggled.
We received all the public assistance available to us,
but still went hungry some days,
when the food stamps ran out
before the month did.
I wore a lot of hand-me-down clothes,
even as the oldest child,
ate a free lunch at school,
couldn’t afford to join any clubs or activities,
rode the bus to and from school every day,
and one December,
a man dressed in a Santa suit
brought gifts to our house
because someone had anonymously
placed our names on an Angel Tree
without telling us.
It is hard to see your own dignity
when it seems like everyone else
can only see your poverty.
Insisting on your own dignity, then,
feels less like an exercise in mental healthcare,
and more like avoiding drowning.
While home and school
felt like a constant fight for survival,
literally and figuratively,
there was one place
that I always felt like I belonged,
like I was both seen
and safe.
The little church
that taught me to sing “Jesus Loves Me,”
“He’s Still Workin’ on Me,”
and “That Ol’ Time Religion”
gave me a sense of unassailable dignity
when the whole world insisted otherwise.
It was the teary-eyed testimony of old men
and the confident hope of church ladies
that taught me to see through
the hand-me-downs and food stamps,
taught me to trust that Jesus loved me,
and even if I couldn’t see,
that they would see it for me.
There is a lot of this sort of truth telling
in the scriptures.
Mary’s song
promised that,
in her miraculous pregnancy,
God has already
shown the strength of God’s arm,
scattered the proud in the thoughts of their hearts,
brought down the powerful,
and raised up the lowly;
already filled the hungry with good things,
and sent the rich away empty.
The angels proclaim peace on earth,
while Judea is still under Roman occupation.
Even Isaiah,
all the prophets for that matter,
seems to speak of the things God has already done,
to a people who couldn’t see them yet.
In today’s Gospel reading,
Simeon,
guided by the Spirit,
makes his way to the temple,
where Mary and Joseph
have come to make sacrifice,
and to have Jesus circumcised.
Luke tells us that Simeon was a righteous man
and that God had promised
that he would not die
until he had seen the salvation
God had promised to Israel.
The moment he sees Jesus,
likely still screaming
from the trauma of circumcision,
Simeon takes Jesus in his arms
and praised God, saying,
“Master, now you are dismissing your servant in peace,
according to your word;
For my eyes have seen your salvation,
which you have prepared in the presence of all peoples,
a light for revelation to the Gentiles
and for glory to your people Israel.”
And the prophetess Anna,
who had lived a life of fasting and prayer,
never leaving the temple,
upon seeing the child,
began to tell everyone looking to free Israel from Rome
about this baby.
Being a parent myself now,
I read this scene,
and I imagine Joseph and Mary,
standing there with a fussy baby,
both mother and baby needing to nurse,
in a crowd of people,
in the temple in busy Jerusalem,
offering two turtle doves.
Leviticus mandates
that a lamb be offered for this sacrifice,
but allows two turtle doves instead
for families too poor to afford a lamb.
I see my own mother,
WIC voucher in hand,
a crying baby on her hip,
and a toddler in the buggy,
leaking through her shirt,
being told she had grabbed the wrong size can of juice
and would have to exchange it.
I cannot imagine
what my mother would have done
or said
to an elderly man
who offered to hold the baby,
and told her that God had already solved all her problems.
My mother
wasn’t prone to pondering in her heart,
and this fella would likely have gotten an ear full.
How can this screaming,
needy,
helpless baby
be the answer to the world’s problems?
How can the prophets,
and angels,
and Simeon,
and Anna,
and even Mary herself,
look at this feeble,
utterly dependent child,
born into poverty,
to unwed parents,
in an occupied country
and proclaim that in him
salvation has come,
the redemption of Israel,
the moment we’ve all been waiting for?!?!
How could they look at this child
and his mother,
herself practically a child,
and see in them
and their paltry sacrifice
something of God’s own dignity?
There will be a lot of dirty diapers,
runny noses,
meals to prepare,
tears to wipe,
boo-boos to kiss,
and teenage hormones to contend with
before Jesus is even old enough to shave,
let alone start his ministry,
be crucifed,
die,
and be resurrected.
This is all to say nothing
of the slaughter of every child under the age of 3,
the flight to Egypt to live as refugees,
and coming back to Roman occupied Judea.
How can angels sing,
shepherds recognize,
Simeon extol,
and Anna evangelize
that Salvation is already here?
Is this wishful thinking?
Is this a really good guess?
Is it hope?
Is it prophecy?
It was not the future
that Simeon could see
in a child being comforted
after circumcision,
the anxiety of his mother
trying to console an infant in public,
the look on Joseph’s face
when he had to offer two turtle doves
instead of a lamb.
Prophecy is not fortunetelling,
it is truth telling.
Simeon and Anna
could see past all that was in front of them
to the reality beneath it.
They borrowed their language from the future,
the future they could now see growing in front of them,
their salvation,
their redemption,
a hope so sure and certain,
that they could speak as though
it had already happened.
Simeon and Anna
could look at the soft,
bleeding,
needy form of this child;
could look at his weary,
stressed-out mother,
and his poor struggling father
and they could see
that if God chose softness,
neediness,
woundedness,
anxiety,
and poverty
through which to reveal God’s self
then there was nothing in all creation
that God had not already blessed,
nothing that God had not already saved,
nothing that God does not already love
no indignity that God has not already swallowed up
in divinity.
This baby is the revelation of God’s very self.
Jesus wasn’t born to die.
Jesus was born to live,
and die,
and be raised.
God did not come in power,
in majesty,
in splendor.
God came almost in secret,
telling only the lowly,
a young girl,
shepherds,
teary-eyed old men
and truth-telling old women.
God came longing to be held by his mother,
to be fed by her soft form,
to be bounced on Joseph’s knee,
to worship with God’s people
in the temple and the synagogue,
to live life alongside them,
to die like one of the least of them,
and to be raised by God
like all the rest of them.
He came not just to dignify.
He came to deify,
to share with us
God’s own dignity.
God came in the flesh
to bless all flesh,
all creation,
and show us that every indignity
has been swallowed up
in divinity.
Amen.