My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though
I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
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Amen.
I distinctly remember the day Pastor Jennifer
came home after her first day as a teacher.
She had been a paraprofessional,
what they used to call a teacher’s aid,
for a few years
while she was finishing her bachelor’s
and master’s degrees,
and had done a year of student teaching,
so this was not her first rodeo.
We had spent the summer moving into her new classroom,
placing everything just so.
She had made all the first-day packets,
written all her lesson plans,
assigned all the seats,
and was ready to go.
The morning of her first day was filled
with all the natural jitters of a new school year:
what to wear,
greeting students and families as they came,
making sure she knew how everyone would get home.
But then the bell rang
and as she turned to close her classroom door from the hallway
she realized …
“Oh my gosh. I’m the teacher!”
“It’s my job to teach these students long division.”
Suddenly,
faced with the reality of this formidable task,
she began to second guess all her excitement,
all her preparation,
all her training.
Maybe you can relate.
Maybe that’s how you felt
on the first day of your career,
or after your hard-won promotion.
Maybe that puppy was cuter in the shelter
than it is peeing in your living room.
Maybe the joy of becoming a parent
was wonderful in the hospital,
but then you walk into your home
just you, your spouse,
and this baby who is dependent on you
and the door shuts and suddenly
parenthood seems much harder –
especially when you haven’t slept in days,
or showered in a week,
and your newest accessory is a spit up stain.
There are many times in our lives when
we know we are called to do something,
to be somebody,
and yet, when the rubber meets the road
that call, that task, that identity
seems foreign, hard, or impossible.
In today’s gospel we find John the Baptist,
the once confident, wild man in the desert,
the one who called people to repentance and baptism
the one making a way for the Messiah
is now in prison and not so sure of himself.
He asks Jesus,
“Are you the one, or should we wait for another?”
Are you the one,
did I get the message right?
Are you the one,
because Rome seems to be just as oppressive?
Are you the one,
because the wilderness seems like a distant memory
and in this prison the walls feel like they’re closing in!
Suddenly, the one chosen to be the forerunner for Jesus,
has doubts of his own
about who he is as a prophet
and who Jesus is as the Son of God.
In the season of Advent,
doubt seems to be an odd companion for us,
afterall Christmas is just around the corner
and this is the week of joy, not doubt.
Yet, faith is not seasonal,
faith is not subject to dates on a calendar or holy days,
Faith is not obligated to celebrations and specific moods.
No, according to Hebrews,
faith is the assurance of things hoped for
and the conviction of things unseen.
In other words,
faith is the path we make by walking.
This year Walt Disney World celebrates 50 years.
If you haven’t been in some time,
the parks continue to expand and grow and flourish.
However, it was not always this way.
When Walt Disney founded Disney World
there were no paved paths.
Instead, Disney invited guests to come in
and make their own paths by walking.
Once the people wore down the paths naturally
it was at that point that Disney came in a paved,
knowing that the people would find the best path
simply by walking the property.
Many times in our lives, the path is created by experience,
not just because the path is evident.
Sometimes the path is trodden by those we trust and love,
sometimes the path is more obvious to us than other times,
and sometimes, we must simply create a path,
following the voice of our Creator.
After her first day as a teacher,
Pr. Jennifer overcame her anxiety,
once she was reminded of
and all the mentors, lessons, and examples of good teaching
along the path made by walking.
Parents often overcome their apprehension about parenthood
Once they are reminded of their own families
Who have raised them and made a path by walking.
Many of us, in moments of self-doubt or hesitation
regain our confidence and move forward
once we are reminded of those
who have made the path by walking.
And today, Jesus reminds John in his own doubt
that the path of faith,
the path to life, death, and ultimately resurrection
is made by walking.
This morning Isaiah
offers us a vision for a holy highway,
lined with the beauty of creation,
the experiences of God’s people,
and the path is worn by the ancestors of faith who,
though they too often had their doubts,
followed God on the path because
they could see the path their ancestors left,
following God in faithfulness.
When Mary is overcome
with the vision for what God is doing through her,
she goes to Elizabeth, who is her forerunner,
to be reminded that even in her doubt
God is at work in both of their wombs.
When John is in the wilderness,
with the vision of the coming Messiah,
he goes back to the vision of Isaiah,
proclaiming that the path that has been trod
by the ancestors of faith leads to the one who is coming.
And beloved, you and I grow in our faith
when we walk the path of discipleship,
not just for ourselves, but for generations to come!
We are the beneficiaries
of those who walked the path before us.
We surround ourselves with saints and ancestors,
with sages and mystics,
with grandparents, mentors,
matriarchs and patriarchs,
who have taught us that
when there is not a path,
we make one by walking.
People of God,
we are in a new age of the church,
an age marked by rapid change
and the need for adaptation
and we have a choice to make:
we can continue to walk the wide,
paved paths of the empire
that lead to destruction,
or we, like John,
can follow the Spirit’s call into the wilderness
to proclaim that the kingdom of God is near
near in the broken and needy,
near in the poor and oppressed,
near in those who doubt and question,
near in those who don’t even know it.
And we, like John, are invited to point to the Messiah,
who came once as an infant
and has promised to come again,
on the Highway of Holiness that Isaiah promised,
bringing justice and peace,
grace and love,
forgiveness and mercy!
And there will be days when
it will come slowly,
like trampled grass
giving way to a muddy path.
We, like John, will wonder if we are doing this right.
We will want some reassurance
that we aren’t wearing this path in vain.
But beloved,
Jesus promises
that our assurance will come on the path.
That no traveler, not even fools, will get lost.
That the redeemed will walk this level path
to joy and gladness,
in sorrow and sighing,
because, beloved,
we are more than prophets,
we are way-makers.
We are mountain-movers
and valley-fillers.
And we are called to use our voices
to cry out for justice
and our feet to trample the path of repentance
to make straight the path for Christ to return
bringing with him reconciliation for all!
Amen.
[1] “The Merton Prayer” from Thoughts in Solitude Copyright © 1956, 1958 by The Abbey of Our Lady of Gethsemani, https://reflections.yale.edu/article/seize-day-vocation-calling-work/merton-prayer , accessed December 10, 2022.