Legacies are important.
Many of us in this room
have entered the second half of life,
and we are likely to be thinking
about what happens when we are gone.
Maybe you’ve already planned your funeral,
designated the organizations to be remembered
when your assets are divided—
please remember to plan your giving to the church!!—
and you’re working hard
to build memories with your loved ones
and to leave a lasting impact on your community.
In our first reading,
the Apostle Peter
speaks to the assembled crowd
on the day of Pentecost.
Filled with the Holy Spirit,
Peter reminds the crowd
of David,
King of Israel,
whom Peter calls a prophet.
Peter tells the crowd
that God had sworn an oath to David
to put his descendant on the throne of Israel forever.
This prophet king,
this warrior poet,
whose reign is remembered by Israel
as the Glory Days,
his legacy looms large.
We read and sing his psalms to this day.
We use the story of David and Goliath
as a metaphor for unlikely underdog victories.
The emblem of Judaism itself
and the nation state of modern-day Israel
is the star of David.
And yet,
when we think of David,
whom the scriptures call
a man after God’s own heart,
we almost never remember
that he was also a rapist and a murderer,
taking Bathsheba as a wife without her consent
and having her husband killed to cover it up.
Legacies are important.
But they can also be unfair.
Our gospel reading
gives us the story of Thomas,
the disciple
and would-be Apostle.
Thomas was one of the 12.
He was with Jesus,
heard his teaching,
witnessed his miracles.
When the other disciples
try to dissuade Jesus from returning to Judea
after the death of Lazarus,
Thomas pipes up confidently,
“Let us also go
that we may die with him.”
When Jesus gives his farewell teaching
after washing the disciples’ feet,
promising that they all knew the way
to where he was going,
it is Thomas
who seems to say what everyone was thinking,
“Lord, we do not know where you are going.
How can we know the way?”
After the Day of Pentecost,
as the Apostles fan out from Jerusalem
and establish communities of believers
across the known world,
the Apostle Thomas
is said to have traveled to India
where he is credited
with the founding of the Indian Orthodox Church
before he was martyred
and his remains brought by his followers
to Edessa.
And yet,
despite all of his bravery,
fidelity
and martyrdom,
he is often called Doubting Thomas.
Today,
a Doubting Thomas
is a euphemism
for a person thought to be overly skeptical,
an unbeliever.
But I think this legacy
of Thomas the Dubious
is unfair.
The other disciples
experienced Jesus’ miraculous appearance
behind their locked door,
and Jesus showed them his hands and side.
They had an experience
and they had proof.
But all Thomas had
was their word.
And that wasn’t enough for Thomas.
Without the same experience
and the same proof,
Thomas couldn’t wrap his mind
or his heart
around such an unbelievable possibility.
Thomas,
like the others,
had witnessed the crucifixion.
He had seen the beatings,
he had seen Jesus’ mangled face
and heard his final, strangled words.
He had seen Jesus die.
He had watched blood and water
gush from his speared side.
After all he had witnessed,
after all he knew to be true,
he needed some proof.
Thomas couldn’t base his faith
on the unbelievable claims
of someone else’s experience.
He was going to have to see it for himself.
He could not accept
a reality
that did not include the cross.
Who can’t relate to that?
Here in this second half of life,
life comes at you pretty fast.
And so does death.
We are all certainly all too familiar
with the same sort of grief,
pain,
trauma,
that Thomas knew.
We have been up close and personal
with death,
with Sheol,
Hades,
what some call Hell.
We have witnessed the mortality
of those we have loved,
and we are staring down the barrel of our own.
Faith in resurrection
as some sort of exemption,
some sort of erasure of all our grief,
pain,
and trauma
is certainly unbelievable,
even offensive.
Belief in some ancient mystery
or in some future rescue
is little comfort
to those whose present reality
feels a lot like Hell.
But that is exactly
where Jesus met Thomas.
Eight days later,
Jesus appears to Thomas
and shows him the scars.
He shows him the nail holes
in his hands and feet.
He shows him his side.
I think we can assume
that there were thorn marks on his face,
patches missing from his beard,
and stripes on his back.
And the very second
that Thomas could see for himself
that this is the same Jesus
he’d seen brutalized and killed,
that all the trauma that had marked his soul
had marked his God as well,
he fell on his face in wonder and worship.
This is the good news for us.
We have a God
who has been to Hell and back
looking for us.
We have a God
who has descended into our grief, pain, and trauma
and knows the way through it.
We have a God
who doesn’t require us to believe impossible truths
but provokes us with undeniable encounters.
We have a God
with scars.
Resurrection is not the undoing of all you’ve been through.
Resurrection is the redemption of all you’ve been through.
Your grief, pain, and trauma
are real.
But your grief, pain, and trauma
are not the whole story.
Scars
are proof of Resurrection.
They are the substance of healing hoped for
and the evidence of grief unseen.
Jesus says to Thomas,
and all disciples,
“You have believed
because of all you’ve been through.
How lucky are those
who don’t have these scars
and yet come to believe.”
Beloved,
show the world your scars.
Go out and find those who aren’t here,
and show them a God with scars,
a God who has been to Hell and back,
a God who isn’t asking us to believe the impossible,
but provoking us with undeniable encounters.
Tell them you have come to believe
because of all you’ve been through.
This is faith,
and not doubt.
This is resurrection.
Amen.